I can remember vividly thinking that my mom knew everything.
She was my superhero, who lived by the motto, “Things will always work out!”
How did she do it all?
My mom worked the tough job as a teacher in a New York City public middle school (visualize pre-teenagers, and raging hormones). Every night she helped me and my three siblings with our homework. Not only that but she was a super amazing chef who made home-cooked dinners almost every night. As she made dinner, she would dole out answers for every problem we were struggling with, and always ended the pep talks with, “things will always work out!”
I grew up. I became a mom too! Now it was my turn.
Am I a superhero in the eyes of my husband, kids, friends, neighbors, and most importantly to myself?
I am, but not in the childlike sense I had as a kid for my mom!
I accept and embrace my call to holiness.
Therefore, my life, my daily grind is all about grace, and all about a journey towards that eternal city, that banquet prepared for me.
I said “yes” to the grace from our sacrament of marriage, and in turn “yes” to an openness to life
God gifted me with grace.The stuff of superheroes. This infusion of grace IS the only answer to becoming the person God is calling me to be!
“It was not you who chose me, but I who chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit that will remain, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name he may give you. This I command you: love one another.”
Grace and LOVE!
Here we are mid-year in our homeschool life. In creeps the world, the “adult peer pressure,” the mommy self-doubt.
Did I do enough? Did I choose the right curriculum? My kids are so behind!
I truly believe that those of us who choose to home educate place an added burden upon ourselves to “be enough” for our kids, not only in the mommy department but in the education/teacher department too! We let doubt in, and we second guess the gift of “the Grace of Yes.”
See, you can find plenty of homeschool resources, Facebook groups, co-ops, well-meaning advice from fellow homeschoolers, and tons of self-help books reinforcing a reliance on everything but grace.
I admit that there is a practical side to things too, of course! It is wise and prudent to do research, and guidance for curriculum, learning styles, scheduling, etc.
However, it is even more important to take time to reflect and pray. In comes Advent, a time for reflection, a time to ponder!
When all is said and done, the only important ingredient, the once, and for all cure to mommy doubt is ‘The Grace of Yes.”
Sounds too simple, right?
Nope, we have God’s word for it.
“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.” Matthew 7:7
“I am the vine and you are the branches. The one who remains in Me, and I in him, will bear much fruit. For apart from Me you can do nothing.”
Ask, seek, knock, and remain in Jesus!
He has endowed us with beautiful minds, hearts, and souls, all in service to Him. As moms we tap into that grace that leads our loved ones to know, love and serve Him!
Grace of Yes. Love.
Powerful stuff! The stuff of superheroes!
How are you handling the mommy self-doubt these days? Share your thoughts below…